for myself

tiring makes me feel sad, feel down, feel lost

tonight i have decided to treat myself a good meal

i went to zen which my favorite japanese restaurant

i am here alone but i still feel warm

because i have tasted a warm and familiar taste 

which i have been forgotten in my memory

last time when pep still at sunway

i used to go zen quite often

hoi is the one who always accompany  me

her favorite fresh raw sanman 

but now we are getting lesser and lesser

and she is not around with me almost 4 month

as usual i have my regular set meal 'sanman salt'

zen- forever the best cook for this meal

i still love you very much

i ate very full and peace

i spend an hour just enjoying my meal

ya, it defiantly not cheap

but i think i have to treat myself 

because i need it

i need to recharge my battery

i need to recover slowly

i need too . . . 

i wish too . . .

i want to be . . .