一个人吃饭是什么感觉

如果你问我一个人吃饭是什么感觉？

我的答案是：“没感觉，只想饱肚子！”

一星期七天，我几乎都是一个人吃晚饭，已经没感觉可言！

友人告诉我如果要他一个人吃饭，他会选择不吃！

工作完了，精力也玩了！我不能不吃！

我都会选择最角落，最不起眼的位子！

一个人尽快把晚饭吃完，叼头就走！

今晚，一如往常我一个人吃饭，店里满座，我的位子没了！

老板热心招待，硬要我留下吃饭！

眼前只有大门口的大圆桌，我一个人坐下八人坐的位子！

紧紧身体靠着角落的墙壁！

一整顿饭，我不乘抬头，一直望下...

经过的顾客不时望向我！

今晚的饭很难吃！

好的哭

今天大家一起哭是为了互相鼓励，互相挟持，一起走下去！明天会好一些，开心一些！值得的！

累

今天的我很累，很累！很伤心！

我的第十年

我的生日快到了，我二十九了！也是我离开家里的第十年，一个人在外的第十年！想想这十年里，书也读完了，工作一如往常！这十年我做了什么，做的好吗？我问我自己，顿了自己... 刚刚和友人谈起自己，无法定性的自己，是不是因为自己没有一个家！我说：‘是’！我很想要一个家，我的家，做我喜欢的，白白的，很随性的摆饰，有人陪我吃饭，哭的时候我人陪！我的家，你在哪？没答案！只好继续走走走....我清楚我想要的一切，我的家，也是我的梦想！目前的我仍然处在黑暗里，努力着，向前看，期待我的家，我的，我的....

讽刺的自己

回家的路上，眼前的月亮模糊不堪，脑里出现了一幕很凄凉的画面！一路思考的好多，觉我自己很讽刺！明明累了，状况很糟，很想趟在床上闭着眼到天亮！我却坐在电脑前思考，硬要自己快乐起来！很讽刺！

冷静.....冷静.....冷静.....

my dream

i am getting myself to the limit to grab all into my hand, please pray for me. It is a long journey, i wish i can do it one by one! 

lim+goh=limjingtyan

These are my lingo (lim+goh), my papa and my mama. Papa lim chow nee (70 years old), Mama goh lian chwee (63 years old) . They love singing, they always pratice at home before they have any singing performance. My papa like to record his singing with mama. He played the cassete in his car everyday. Every night, before he sleep he will play his singing cassete again. When my papa was young he likes to join choir very much. At the end, he give up because he got to work day and night. Now he has retire, he decided to form his own choir team. He did it, he is the leader now . He provide venue, vehicle and food. Every tue and sun, is his choir pratice. He likes to cook 'dong shui' and kuih muih for his member. He willing to do this, this is his hobby after his retiring life.

Every morning, my mama goes dancing with a group of friend. They have to wear red T-shirt as their uniform. From far you are see a group of people in red very clear and outstanding. After dancing, they will having breakfest together. Sometimes my mama will cook some dishes and bring over to share with her friends. They are forever happy and noise. My mama's car always prepare small chair for her to chit chat after dancing.

Both of them are very enjoy their life. They are forever active in social life. I am so proud of my papa and mama. Please do take care and love yourself ya. Love you, your daughter amei.