my dream

i am getting myself to the limit to grab all into my hand, please pray for me. It is a long journey, i wish i can do it one by one! 

lim+goh=limjingtyan

These are my lingo (lim+goh), my papa and my mama. Papa lim chow nee (70 years old), Mama goh lian chwee (63 years old) . They love singing, they always pratice at home before they have any singing performance. My papa like to record his singing with mama. He played the cassete in his car everyday. Every night, before he sleep he will play his singing cassete again. When my papa was young he likes to join choir very much. At the end, he give up because he got to work day and night. Now he has retire, he decided to form his own choir team. He did it, he is the leader now . He provide venue, vehicle and food. Every tue and sun, is his choir pratice. He likes to cook 'dong shui' and kuih muih for his member. He willing to do this, this is his hobby after his retiring life.

Every morning, my mama goes dancing with a group of friend. They have to wear red T-shirt as their uniform. From far you are see a group of people in red very clear and outstanding. After dancing, they will having breakfest together. Sometimes my mama will cook some dishes and bring over to share with her friends. They are forever happy and noise. My mama's car always prepare small chair for her to chit chat after dancing.

Both of them are very enjoy their life. They are forever active in social life. I am so proud of my papa and mama. Please do take care and love yourself ya. Love you, your daughter amei.

my mum cook

my mum is a good cook, she used to cook since she is 1o years old...she born in a poor family, she is no.2 among 10 sisters and brothers.she trained to cook for her little brothers and sisters. Every morning she has to cook before she went to work. According to my mum, she had to prepare plenty of porridge and simple vege. These are their breakfest and lunch (2 in 1). when the time my mum was in 17 years old, she worked as a maid in penang. This is the first time she left home and worked alone in Penang. ( maybe this is the reason she likes to eat penang asam laksa) when she was in penang, she used to cook different type of cuisine....chinese food, western food etc...she is a talented cook. I still remember when i was 11 years old....i used to watched my mum cook....and she always asking me to go out of the kitchen. she don't like anyone of us to kacau her .....haha but i still stand next to her. One day i told my mum, can i cook for you. " You sure or not", " I said i can". At the end, i cooked 4 dishes and 1 soup. It is really a surprise to my family, but my mum keep saying can eat or not.....while she was talking,her mouth is full of food. kekeke.....

yesterday night she cook a fantastic ' char siow'. Omgs...it is damn happenning, it's taste good and yummy.... i love it. woooohhhhhhhhhhhh.... Look at the 'char siow' , it is so fat and oily but when you put it in your mouth. You difently shock of it.....thanks mum! good job, well done! i love it! you forever my idol in everythings you are.

#ps: peppies, my mum is going to cook for you guys....she is preparing for everyone of you, i will bring back for our lunch meal. dun miss it ok , i will be back this 4 May (mon). C ya!

mine watches!!

1 2 3 4 5 6  

1 from different places,

2 from different peoples

3 contains different weight

4 built in different length

5 from different background

6 in different prices

but

they all belong to me

they all my favorite

they are mine

i love it

watches are my favorite

for myself

tiring makes me feel sad, feel down, feel lost

tonight i have decided to treat myself a good meal

i went to zen which my favorite japanese restaurant

i am here alone but i still feel warm

because i have tasted a warm and familiar taste 

which i have been forgotten in my memory

last time when pep still at sunway

i used to go zen quite often

hoi is the one who always accompany  me

her favorite fresh raw sanman 

but now we are getting lesser and lesser

and she is not around with me almost 4 month

as usual i have my regular set meal 'sanman salt'

zen- forever the best cook for this meal

i still love you very much

i ate very full and peace

i spend an hour just enjoying my meal

ya, it defiantly not cheap

but i think i have to treat myself 

because i need it

i need to recharge my battery

i need to recover slowly

i need too . . . 

i wish too . . .

i want to be . . .

设计师

还记的小学一年级，我的志愿 . . .

写了‘设计师’，当时也搞不清楚什么？

就这样‘它’一直跟随着我 . . .

到了中学毕业侯，我依然选择了‘设计师’

尽管和家人争吵，被亲朋契友泼冷水

我还是坚持的要‘它’

选择了‘它’

一个人到陌生的地方生活

还记得离开家的那一天，妈妈并没有送我

我知道她舍不得

就这样我一个人来到了这里生活

一个人吃饭， 一个人看电视

一个人， 一个人！

每逢星期日从家里回到这里

我会哭个不停！

又是一个人的我 . . .

我不喜欢这里的星期日

在这里生活的第三年

我的毕业试来临

六月的某一天，我想放弃‘它’

我无法完成‘它’

也不敢向家人诉苦，说我不行了！

因为我选择了这一个‘它’

我只好坚持

最终我也成了‘它’

学院毕业侯，就工作了将近七年

这七年里，我不停的工作

因为我很自豪，我是‘它’

工作狂， 工作痴

也记不得我所做过的什么什么

也不曾记得它！

我喜欢‘它’的过程多过‘它’的样貌

工作上却偏偏唱反调

我也尝试了好几年

尽管市场的要求也日夜更新

究竟我还能适应多少呢？

不知道！

我选择了这样的一个‘它’

对还是不对？

空白格

回家的路上，脑里一片空白格

空白着白天黑夜的过活

坐在车子上，心灵一片空白格

空白着无音乐的陪伴 . . .

意外的发生 ，体力一片空白格

空白着如何继续撑着 . . .

走进房间里，眼里一片空白格

空白着如何整理它 . . .

坐在电视前，心里一片空白格

空白着戏里的故事 . . . 

听了妈妈的电话，思绪一片空白格

空白着你的健康 . . .

顿了几分钟，还是一片空白格

空白着一切一切 . . . 

可以

今早我起的很早

因为只有在这个时侯

不用刷牙

不用打扮（或许我从不）

不用说话

可以懒懒的

可以丑丑的

可以暖暖的

可以空空的

可以静静的

可以轻轻的

享受早上的温暖

让我觉的很平静！

悲与喜

今晚我们在汕城用餐，一如往常，我又多点了一个人份。当aunty把‘星洲米粉’摆在中间时，我就很好奇地说：‘你怎么知道这是公私吃的！’ aunty 笑笑说她知道！当时，我的眼泪差一点就掉了下来！我怎么会这样能？就因为那一个‘星洲米粉’吗？不是的，而是我的眼泪挺不住了！近来，发生了好几件事，一连二三地发生... 车的问题，脚的问题，精神的问题，钱的问题，等等？？？？不记得我躲在厕所哭了几次？疯了几次？我的脚又痛了，令我坐得很不舒服，很想再去‘军师’，它的痛令我全身发抖，麻痹！回家的路上，痛的很！原来它会是那么漫长的一个旅程！车的问题令我烦大了头，刚刚我又发现了一些事，又得再去再去再去好几趟produa. sighs.......因为你，我的精神出了毛病，很怕下雨，每当下雨天，不论是白天或黑夜，我都担心着，吓醒着！慢慢地也开始疑神疑鬼了！没有音乐的陪伴，令我觉的很空荡荡的，很恐惧！有些事我想我还是不能接受，却点头说‘好’，‘可以’！

放工前，老板给大伙们讲了一些话！听了后，我恍然被她打醒了，脑里想了一些些想法，想通了某些事！谢谢你！也和大伙人谈了好一阵子，收获不少！谢谢你们！顿时，我的心热了起来！我想我应该把它放下，都发生了，不能回头！我应该把手上的事情做好！我想要安慰！今晚我吃了好饱好饱，我知道我须要力量来作战！我要睡的好，我要好好的！因为我还有好多好多的事等着做！

我想我会没事的，有什么做错的，讲错的！请原谅！

我接受的！

耳朵里的小小听筒！

虽然我们就只有两只耳朵

可是我们却天天收听着不同的电台

听一听轰叫的

听一听温柔的

听一听争吵的

听一听你的

听一听他的

听一听它的

听一听我自己的

一二三四五六七

一听就数不清

听不清你我他它的声

究竟应该是my fm / 988 / mix fm / hits fm / light & easy / 933...

太多喽！

不知道啦！

等等

好不好？

我只想听一听

听我自己世界里的声音

只须要一个就好

一个让我沉默， 让我低头，让我平静， 

让我哭， 让我笑，让我疯， 让我喊，让我巅

让我让我让我让我

让我...世界只有你而已

让我...我只须要你而已

让我...我不能没有你

只要让我沉默， 让我低头，让我平静，

 让我哭， 让我笑， 让我疯， 让我喊， 让我巅

我就能抬起头，向前看着你， 听着你， 说着你！

不得不佩服耳朵里的小小听筒！

你的耐心， 你的结构！

等

三月三十日早上七点整，买了早点

坐在巴士上，闭上眼

心急着把早点带回去

开开心心的

分享我爱吃的

到了家，

坐上车，急着上班

因为我迟到了

转了一转

耳边传来一阵阵的水声

停在一旁，眼呆呆的往着它

不是吧！又来！

打了电话，赶紧求救

一路上，只能慢慢的

水不断涌着我

怎么办！

到了修车厂

赶紧报告我的遭遇

他说他的

我说我的

最终的答案：“等”

我很担心我的影响系统，

一直希望对方可以帮帮我

答案还是等

觉的好无助

身边都是我须要的

却只能坐着等

我无法忍受

只好用报子慢慢地把水吸走

过了半小时

JJX 2103

开了车门

"banyak air nya"

就叫我再等一等

来了另一位修车员

看了一看

就说这很麻烦的，要做就很贵

那没办法

只好点点头，签了名

把车交给他

到了公司

也忘了早点的事

今天很忙

喘不过气

快要下班了，才想到我的早点

急忙叫大伙们吃了它

叮烧后，咬了一口

味道不一样了

样子也不一样了

怎么了

我的这一天！

为什么？

外面的雨好大好大！

我的心好冷好冷！

想要大大声喊， 大大声哭！

却喊不出声， 哭不出声！

眼泪一直往内流，羡慕你哗啦啦的下个不停！

真的很累！

真的很痛！

白， 对不起！

答应过你会找出答案，

却伤了你一次有一次！

我真的无能为力！

为什么？

为什么？

不停在我脑海里浮现

我真的不知道

别再问了？

为什么？

me and my diana!

big sunny day, hot shinny light
bringing my toy tour around Muar town
is a nice weather to use this DIANA...
its need big strong light
it had with me 2 years plus
this is my first time using it















under 36-40 temperature
is really hot
i'm so wet
i'm so smelly
but the view is so attractive
i'm still happy i'm here
no comment

hows the result?
i dunno
it is a mystery
it might turn out a piece of nice photo
or a black empty photo

hmmm....
is interesting to make you guess??
so do i ?















it is so different compair with digital camera
it is a toy of imagery.
no preview! no sound! no regret! no excuses!
once you drag the button
the imagery is build
build in a grey area....
until it come to the world
answer announce
happy or not
is the result!

i hope i can get 50 over 100
please....

am i ask too much
@@)

my day

yesterday night, i had a nice movie at 1U, watched yasmin ahmad latest movie "Talentime". Its so beauty, that i feel it until now and tomorrow.

slept around 3am and wake up 7.45am this morning, catched my bus back to muar. As usual have "chu cheong fun" as breakfest at petaling street. Leave pudu at 10.15am, arrived muar at 12.30pm. Papa pick me from bus station, in our journey back , we only have few word among me and papa. Going to have my lunch, notice my motorcycle petro is empty, air of tire is nearly gone. Omgs, it happened again! sighs! Reach bakery shop, asking my mama for the lunch, is a busy day for "ching ming". They have "tapao" for their lunch. So, i decide to look for my friend karen.... we went out to eat at "tam ciak kuih". eat "wanton mee, otak-otak, satay... today this street is full of people...so hot so crowded....luckly food still nice. Visit CIMB, finanly i got to draw out money, which i can't draw out yesterday.

After finish dinner at home, around 7.45pm. I'm preparing for the earth hour event, informing my family that i'm going to shut off all the electricity. Kiddos are excited but the old and mature 1 are not really agree, they want to do this and that! End up the lights are all closed but the TV is still on. Because astro AEC is doing singing competition! Papa favorite! This is my earth hours for tonight, no candle but got TV.

After 9.30pm, lights turn on! Is not easy to educate this message to my family. But it is hard to happened together, because my family contain too many people. They have different needs and opinion! I had done my part, finished my responsibility! Finished my bath, going "lim tea" with friends until 2am. Reaching home, open the ladtop.....starting my blog and visiting FB.

This is my day , is really tired and sick.

i just want to recall back, what have i done today. Sorry for it!

seat in everywhere

this is my seat

i have to sit tight 8 hours per day

but tonight when i was talking with mojo

i found out sitting in different places, create different feel and view

likes:

reception : nice view which i never been before, 

quite a fresh mind, but is really cold here....

conference room: i like to sit here, is comfort and relax :)

when strangers are sitting in (meeting), no more comfort and relax :(

our new seat: for mojo:"welcome to our land"

starting your design world!

hoi's place: i miss you very much, waiting you!

loo's place: transformer lover!

every morning must have a cup of green color NESCAFE 3 IN 1!

every time i sit on your chair, i feel so short, cos you are too tall!

phenie's place: the blue mug is so important to her, 

she can't live without water...or maybe her favorite MILO!

and her HP always ONZ fm 98.8

bobo's place: this is the only seat with colorful view

the feng-shui plant must always fill in water

is important for him to get inspiration and HUAT!

he will make noise if the water is gone, " oh no! oh no!, how... how....

pantry: my favorite place to sit, eat, drink, chit chat, working etc....

it is so warm, nice view, nice lighting, nice food & drinks

this is my second working place, i use to sit here sometimes....

reading and enjoying a cup of PU ER, TIE GUAN YIN......

conclusion: i like to sit everywhere

but still prefer my seat, it is mine!

finanlly

this message makes me happy

i have double check with left and right eyes

yeah...it is true

i can't believe

it is coming true

i have been waiting

finally 

we are friend now (in FB la)

i have to say thank you to you,sis

"thanks for your letter"

although i dunno what's inside the letter

but thanks for your thought of it

its help. thanks!

@@D

coming i might got chance to meet with her

i have plan a few gift for her

and is time for me to pass on her hand

we are going closer, but i worry somethings

dunno what to talk to her when we meet

what should i face to her

hmmm

is a bit scare la

someone i have been admire and likes her 

it is almost 8years++

so when the time dora told me i got chance to meet with her

can say i am happy, yet i am worry also

u might think how silly i am

but this is me lo...

i dunno how to express myself especially in front some people

they are my hero....sososo

hmmmm....

but i think i will try it

is not easy to have this chance....

people are helping me, remember that i likes her

i should appreciate it

don't think so much

just do it

should be alright

i'm very happy tonight...

i did it....

kekeke

sorry that i makes you boring

but this moment i am happy lo

xie xie ni men

 

聊聊我的心

今晚我没话题

只想聊聊我自己

我知道我出毛病了

我的行为告诉了我一切

昨晚提议吃快餐

一次又一次

不像往常的我

你该知道

那人不是我吧

不知道怎么了

我在害怕着

心里很空

像是被吓倒了

好的坏的

怎样也塞不进

你讲的话

我都在听

心里还是如此空荡荡

对不起

不是我要为难你

而是我无法思考

那怎能给你答案呢

吃着我爱吃的

也吃不出滋味

可能没睡好吧

一切都乱了

我很累

很累

很累

今晚，好好的睡

明天就会没事了

好不好

no decision

no decision

money is there

things is just a "cm" to grab

why can't you make yourself a decision

actually i dunno

feel very confused of myself

and today i'm really stressed...

really no mood to think of it

how to get it done

give me some time 

please

cos you are not my priority to think now

my head is spinning

can't really concentrate

so sorry

let it pass

will be back to you

T H A N K S ! 谢谢！terima kasih! 干谢！ arigatuk!

wah, today such a tired day for me, but i do enjoy myself very much!

21 march is passed, my birthday

key in my memory with these happy moment

your smile, your laugh, your love, your serious, your song, your voice, your face

i love it, i marked it.

friends, sissss, brosss.... you guys are so love, so kind

i know i am a fussy girl, no easy to stay with me

scare to show me things, scare to tell me your idea

scare to suggest, scare to share

because i keep band this and that!

or maybe sometimes i do really like it, but might suspicion by others

but, this round

you guys did it, well done peppies

no comment at all, or won't i comment anythings

i should learn from now

have to stay calm and appreciate 

don't voice too fast

is hurt and spoilt the mood of the situation

hmmm, almost 6 years i only knew it

forgive me such a low sense of it

your patient always giving me chances

i will change friend, promise

3 little kids make the party lightly, warm

thanks kobe, hayley and san yang

kido, i love you very much...you are my little friends

knowing both of you 6 years, and you are 4 years

from baby until little kids

making noise, making fun, making joke

these are your path to being here

we all enjoyed!

our little entertainment!

i would like to say thank you:

diane

thanks sis, is a lovely year for my birthday! you really can read my mind, i really trust you in many way. i believe your taste, your wisdom, your mind, your everythings! just love it, sis!

dora

you are such a wonderful woman in my life! nothings is impossible in your dictionary, never give up, always giving me energy. thanks sista! your skill shown your talents! i l have faith with you, keep it on ya.....u really BOLEH

hoi

forever my master, no matter where you are, who you are, mother of 3! I always respect you as my guidance. You always encourage me, believe my strength ! Thanks hoi

loo

you are a tall guy, but you  never put down on me. thanks for telling me the updated news, my favorite drama, song, 白白的anythings....hehehe....xie xie ni ah!

bobo

you are the guy who shown tear on me, is such a real relationship you and me! you are really a sexy love guy, always wanna shown your love no matter how it was! i like your truths, you are so confident on it, bro...u can do well in your design, i trust you, you can! thanks for being my friend!

mojo

mau mei, you are a little power puff girl! pretty looking, cheerful face, naughty likely, lovely.

thanks for making fun with me, draw line on my eye, my first make up. Its fresh and fun but still a bit scare! hahaha

phenie

thanks for your birthday card. i love it, is a cute idea to show my birthday month! ya, we went for shopping together, went for amei concert....n my party....thanks for your attendance and time! i do enjoyed.

celine

thanks for joining me the concert and my party! although we didn't meet closely, but you always shown your activeness. thanks ya!

love u , 

janice, jingjing, tyan, amei-tyan, limjingtyan, jing,静

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

祝我生日快乐

祝我生日快乐

祝我生日快乐

祝我生日快乐

selamat hari jadi

selamat hari jadi

selamat hari jadi

selamat hari jadi

@@D 

朝阳夜市

刚刚从朝阳夜市回来！

记得上一次是一两年前吧！

收获不少哦！哈哈！

吃了一个肉丝包，阿清没兴趣 :(

令人无法抗拒的“asam laksa", 阿清也点点头和我一起吃！

魅力无法挡， 哈哈！

吃饱啦，开始手痒了！

买了花花的袜子，是你的！我的是绿的！

牵回了一条小鳄鱼，它是吃斋的！猜到了吗？

买了袜子， 那就来件衣服吧！

不错的哦！有机会见到它的！

为了阿妹，也准备一些必须品

大家都有份！

hmmm, 夜市怎么会没买水果呢？

是有很多草莓啦，不过我没买！

阿清买了不错的本地蕉！

回家前，来碗糖水！

不错的一晚！

谢谢你！清

no brand but is cost few hundred....OMGS!!!

This afternoon,  i got my receipt of my car drying. 

it wasn't a branded receipt but it cost me RM240

wait, wait

it got brand, " BUDDIES CUSHION"

ha ha ...... signboard with rainbow....

(rainbow brings good sign) kekeke ...

i have to thank this guy-Calvin, 

he helps me to solve my problem (although i still have to pay)

when the incident was happened, i wasn't feel comfort for few days

until my car is fine, and it is hold by me

my heart slowly peace and calm

its really affect me a lot....

it is true, because my feeling shown all of this

so Calvin, you are really my BUDDY

hahaha....

i should send my car to bath  more..... i will try

sure, "BUDDIES CUSHION" 

you are my list of choice....

please take care of yourself, 

sorry that i still can't find out what's the problem to cause you so dirty, so wet, so smelly

i will seriously look into it

so please bare with me, " bai...."

i really love you

thanks for being with me for 2 years 5 months

xie xie ni BAI

is 17 march not 16 march....but

is 17 march not 16 march.... but things still happened

i cried, i tired, dunno how to say .....

i have repeated it .... till i also dunno what is the answer should i tell u , tell her, tell who who who, or myself?

is so sudden, is so unbelievable, it is happen ...

is a deep pain of me....

but i don't have feel of it....

thats is a very unusual things for me

by pass....i sure sad and moody

but now.... is sad still but is sad with low battery

no battery to against, no battery to quarrel, no battery to shout, no battery to eat

just feel to shut myself off...

i'm very tired.... but no battery to sleep

close my eye....

think of you

i'm scare ...

爱不失手

在茨敞街的某个角落，有一家人卖着'纯'猪肠粉. . .

大大小小时时挂着笑容

：“小姐，几位，这边坐！”

礼貌的很。

我喜欢！ ：〕

白白的，滑滑的，甜甜的！

它并没有华丽的样貌，却能令你忘不了

是我爱吃的食物，对它爱不失手...

猪肠粉，我今早的早餐！

yummy.....

爱死你了！

灵魂能够承载多少压力

记得妮曾经说过：“我们的灵魂就只有几公克，能够承载多少压力呢！”

所以要懂得放开，不能勉强！

知道！明白！

试过，还是很难受！

放松 …

面对它！

 

唯一的骄傲

: " 路 "

台北的午夜有一种想念的气味


它总是让人难以入眠
 让人哽咽

那房间的烟味想著谁想著谁


它总是不经意的又一次

有意思
没意思在耳边无理徘徊

真的有一点累


真的无力我向后退

因为你的一句问候不能代表

你真的能体会


我知道这一路的风风雨雨 它总是让人跌倒


也知道这一路的曲曲折折 会模糊了我的想要


未来也许飘渺


我的力量也许很渺小

要让你知道执著是我


唯一的骄傲

 

不想

其时我是不是很难懂的一个人，

真的那么难理解我吗？

是我太过挑剔，我承认，你们也认同。

还是你们不曾理解我呢？

 

 “总觉得没人了解吧


   所以不回答

   麻木跟着别人流行的步伐


   总觉得没人理会吧


   所以不说话

   三更半夜精疲力尽不想争论

   不想回家
”

 

“ 他们说我很情绪化


   我想是因为他们不懂我吧

   懒得去整理他们的想法


   无所谓的样子

   我不想也罢”

 

真的能那么潇洒…

 

somethings i never realized.....

this scene is so close to me...... 

but for others.... they are so conscious about the height of the antenna. 

i spent an evening, walked around my housing area.... 

looked up the sky.....

they are really high! 

this is somethings i never realized in my life! 

i noticed the color of sky is changing..... 

it is naturally beautiful. 

i might miss it ..... 

if i didn't looked up the sky.

i know you are always there for me.....

i think i should spend more time on you, shouldn't  i ?

maybe.....

dunno....

hopefully....

i can't tell you now.... 

forgive me

很酸很酸!

我是很喜欢酸，但是心理的酸我受不了！

他们又吵架了，虽说是家常便饭！我还是受不了！

今天，一大早他们就轰炸起来！平静的我也静不下来！

你有你说，他有他说，那又有谁听我说！我该如何是好？

看这你的背影，你很孤单，你很伤心，我哭了.......

我知道你很疼，心疼为什么他不能理解你..... 我知道的？

每一次你哭的时候，我都在偷偷看着你！我不要看到你这样.....

我也不想讨厌你，为什么你不肯对他温柔一些呢？

我想带你走，你要吗？你可以吗？

我很累，我无能为力！

你告诉我你活得辛苦，你告诉我你那一天的痛！

我要怎样做呢？

我很想为你做些事，但是我做不到！

我知道我很没用！

怎么办！

不要伤心了，会没事的！

我会一直在你身边的！

after reading......

hey, i had been long time didn't write my blog........but after reading friends' heart..... i'm so touch....i think is time to wake up my blog.

hmmm, what should i say:" actually my mind is blank like cloud...just this momemt i know that i'm full of touch, full of love!"

i wan to tell my friend. u guys are so lovely, so do i. everyday we are surrounding with LOVE, but actually how much love have i give you, or how much love have i get from you. I DON'T KNOW ......i need love from you, cos i really feel lonely, feel lost, feel unsecure.....

so where is my love?

??????????????????????????????

god!

i need love.....

can i ?